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Tonight was life changing. I don't know yet for sure if it truly was life changing because it's only been an hour since the experience. The Experience. Don't really want to share about the actual event that popped on to my lap but more of how it has changed my views on life and people. Lately, the word relationship has been very important to me... My family and friends, the relationships that I cherish most out of every and any that are in my life, my family and friends... For these people, I don't care about looking foolish for them or in front of them, giving up my life to help them, putting my reputation in the dumpster for these people. So lately, I've been thinking about my life because I have so many relationships that are in the air between friends or just acquaintances. Especially for church. Are the people that go to the same church as me... family, friends or just acquaintances and tonight I figure that to generalize the whole church in to a category just isn't fair for or for anybody else. end thought.

The way people respond to you in a sensitive atmosphere shows a lot of who the person really is. When there is drama... who and what are they really worried about? Are they worried about their 'reputation' or are they really worried about the situation at hand? This doesn't qualify people as being evil or just bad people but I do categorize it under selfish ... anyways.. my thoughts on this is not fully matured.

overall.

When the shit hits the fan, true colors of people come out.

I love you guys that read my boring and complaining blogs!

Gina, Congratulations on Graudation, you're in a a good situation, eat at soup plantation, its a great sensation, tion tion tion.
haha, but all jokes aside... I'm really proud of you, like really... not just because you graudated high school and will be going to a school out of state by yourself! but because you also, stuck around at Wilshire even though there no on your age and I know it was hard at times but I really respect that.. I respect that even though you couldv'e been somewhere else your age people having all sorts of wild fun, you stayed and was confident in who you are.
Gina, you're awesome. In the future, I hope to work with you.


David Kwon
David Kwon
David Kwong!
I love you. I really do. Thanks for leading praise all the time even though it must be hard. I know you will become a great person.. You already are a great person but when you get older, you're going to be so awesome.
I know I'm not always around but if you need anything david, don't hesitate to call me... If you need a ride, call me. If you're bored, call me. If you're hungry, call me. If you're doing something bad, call me... I can't guarantee anytime but I'll do my best to help you.
David, Just let things go and don't try to be in control... Life knows how to live, we just flow with it. ok?
Well, You know I'm going to North Carolina right? in August... Well, Since, you're one of the greatest praise leaders I know, I wanted to leave you with my martin if that's ok.. I would like to just give it to you but I kind of want to play with it when I'm here. hahahah but if you accept my offer, I want to leave the responsibilities to you.. you can do whatever you want with it.. Take care of it but if it break accidently, don't feel bad... so, what I'm trying to say is that it's basically yours during the school year if you wanttt...
I hope you want but if not, let me know..
hmm... I hope you read my entries... haha or i would feel absolutely silly.


Andrew Park
Stop reading my entries and write a new one already!

It's not much to claim anything with words these days. Verbs, nouns, sentences, paragraphs, statements, questions, letter, etc. have lost so much weight that when used it has to be backed by actions and build a foundation of trust where words can once again stand. When Christians claim to be "christian", it basically means that they go to church or do churchy things or they believe that Jesus is the Saviour, which kind of sums it up and that's all we expect the word means. To say that you are a Christian should have something deeper that is expected of the subject proclaiming their belief. Not just, biblical references to "prove" their belief but to show their foundation of belief which in our case as Christians I would assume is LOVE. God so 'loved' the world he gave his only begotten son who died for our sins on the cross which I believe shows the meaning of the word to the full extent.

If our actions show what we believe our words will have weight on the ears that it falls on.

Even in non christian communities, just among friends. So many people say they will be there but often flake which will lead their friends to assume in the future events that this one person will most likely flake and the next time they say they will be there, the friends will plan for him/her to not be there.

i dont know why I decided to write this... I wanted to write about me moving to North Carolina.
oh well... next time.

the older I get... the less I want to share... this is the sad truth.

Well, I'm moving to North Carolina for sure hopefully by fall. I feel like a part of me really wants to leave to leave all of my responsibilities that were given to me because the lack of volunteers and I was pre-mature to handle them. I'm not ready to be in charge of anything right now but I'm in charge of more than I should be and it's sucking me dry. I really want to move to North Carolina because it seems really simple, not too much going on and I can sort of start over.
It feels good to look forward to change instead of having that feeling, "am i going to be like this forever?"
North Carolina, I hope it works out. I hope it molds me in to a different person.
I'm excited, there are many people that keeps trying to discourage me from going there, I don't exactly know why. They ask me questions like, "are you sure you want to do?, why there? what are you going to do there? etc. etc." Other times, it might have affected me but too many times those voices kept me from doing what I really want or should do. Too many people have their own agendas for your life, if 23 years of living has taught me anything is that no matter how great or nice a person is, most of the time their "advice" is their own personal goal for your life. It's a funny concept. Another person not of family but just friend or acquaintance has a 'plan' for you, they have an agenda for YOU! It' might be selfish or it might just be from their own person experience what ever the reason, it's usually something that we shouldn't really just take as perfect or even as credible. We all are individuals and our own decisions are what makes us individuals. hmm a little off tangent there.

excited for NC.

can my days go any faster?
I feel like the weekdays are so short... i can't believe I'm saying this but I wish they were longer.
I feel like there isn't enough time to do everything, although the major role in it is because I don't manage my time very well...

I can't stop eating.. someone pray for me.