It's not much to claim anything with words these days. Verbs, nouns, sentences, paragraphs, statements, questions, letter, etc. have lost so much weight that when used it has to be backed by actions and build a foundation of trust where words can once again stand. When Christians claim to be "christian", it basically means that they go to church or do churchy things or they believe that Jesus is the Saviour, which kind of sums it up and that's all we expect the word means. To say that you are a Christian should have something deeper that is expected of the subject proclaiming their belief. Not just, biblical references to "prove" their belief but to show their foundation of belief which in our case as Christians I would assume is LOVE. God so 'loved' the world he gave his only begotten son who died for our sins on the cross which I believe shows the meaning of the word to the full extent.

If our actions show what we believe our words will have weight on the ears that it falls on.

Even in non christian communities, just among friends. So many people say they will be there but often flake which will lead their friends to assume in the future events that this one person will most likely flake and the next time they say they will be there, the friends will plan for him/her to not be there.

i dont know why I decided to write this... I wanted to write about me moving to North Carolina.
oh well... next time.

the older I get... the less I want to share... this is the sad truth.

Well, I'm moving to North Carolina for sure hopefully by fall. I feel like a part of me really wants to leave to leave all of my responsibilities that were given to me because the lack of volunteers and I was pre-mature to handle them. I'm not ready to be in charge of anything right now but I'm in charge of more than I should be and it's sucking me dry. I really want to move to North Carolina because it seems really simple, not too much going on and I can sort of start over.
It feels good to look forward to change instead of having that feeling, "am i going to be like this forever?"
North Carolina, I hope it works out. I hope it molds me in to a different person.
I'm excited, there are many people that keeps trying to discourage me from going there, I don't exactly know why. They ask me questions like, "are you sure you want to do?, why there? what are you going to do there? etc. etc." Other times, it might have affected me but too many times those voices kept me from doing what I really want or should do. Too many people have their own agendas for your life, if 23 years of living has taught me anything is that no matter how great or nice a person is, most of the time their "advice" is their own personal goal for your life. It's a funny concept. Another person not of family but just friend or acquaintance has a 'plan' for you, they have an agenda for YOU! It' might be selfish or it might just be from their own person experience what ever the reason, it's usually something that we shouldn't really just take as perfect or even as credible. We all are individuals and our own decisions are what makes us individuals. hmm a little off tangent there.

excited for NC.